However my son changes, I will love him.
New music and some reflections on nostalgia and moving forward.
My parents didn’t come to my wedding. I’m not sure how to talk about that here, but it was painful, of course. The day was gorgeous and filled with joy despite it, but it’s a memory I’ll never have, seeing my mom’s teary face as she sees me in my wedding dress for the first time.
I’m not in touch with my parents, and I’m not sure how to talk about that here. It’s a hole in my life I feel every day while my life keeps going and I get older and keep building something new. I grieve regularly, as I keep making music, loving my perfect boy and wife, and trying to remember to floss before bed every night.
It seems that every change I make or self-truth I embrace takes me further away from the kid I was growing up in Aurora, Colorado. I’ve had almost an obsessive need to see childhood photos and videos, evidence of a time and place I am grasping at like a disappearing cloud. I am building a new life that is beautiful and filled with freedom and, most importantly, is mine. But the little girl in me still yearns for connection with the thing I came from.
I lost a lot when I started the life-long walk of coming home to myself. I wrote a song called “Aurora” for my son as a promise that however he changes, I will love him.
I’ve just released a performance of that song. This is the first song I’ve released publicly that will be on my upcoming album, Kin. It’s a live version with a heartbreakingly gorgeous choir, arranged by Harry Castle. Singing with them was a moving experience and one of my favorites of my career.
Go watch the video. Listen to the song. If you like what you hear and want to see more, please back my record on Kickstarter. There’s a lot more where this came from.
We have 3 days left to reach our all-or-nothing goal and are so close to getting there! Thank you, thank you, thank you.